My
history
What I long saw as a weakness was actually my greatest strength: my hypersensitivity .
My childhood: solitude and difference
Since childhood, I've always felt different. At school, I was that lonely, ostracized boy, often alone at recess, dreading partner activities.
Exile, Religion, and the Discovery of My Identity
At 11, my life changed dramatically: my parents separated, and I was sent to live with my father in a very religious environment. It was there that I discovered my homosexuality—a shock in a world that told me I was "doomed" before I even lived.
I grew up between guilt and silence. At 17, I fled to mainland France, hoping to find freedom. But a new, even harsher religious straitjacket awaited me. Despite everything, I graduated with honors. I wanted to live my homosexuality freely.
The flight to freedom...toxic love and the descent into hell
In Lyon, I continued my studies, but loneliness and depression accompanied me. One day, I experienced what I thought was a love story... which turned into a nightmare. Physical violence, humiliation, emergencies, total isolation. Four years of survival, until I finally found the strength to escape.
I then thought I had found a new beginning. I got into another relationship but the wounds were still there. My perception of reality was distorted. I lacked self-confidence, I suffered from low self-esteem. So like a mirror, those around me reflected my wounds back to me. I felt like I was reliving the same scenarios whether in the relationship or professional sphere. I sank back into depression. I lost myself in alcohol, weight gain, hurtful remarks, loss of confidence. I discovered hypersensitivity, which I had always experienced as a weakness.
One day, everything collapses. I leave everything behind. I fall. Deeply. But my cats, meditation, nature... become my guides.
Awakening: Meditation and Spirituality
Then comes this spark. I remember my dreams: to be free, to live in the countryside, to work in the company of my dreams. And one day, without warning, the universe opens this door for me. I seize my chance. I got the job and the salary of my dreams.
I realized I wasn't broken. I was simply revealing myself."
The Renaissance
I continued my healing while working as an engineer in a large company.
During this healing process, something within me was calling me to be whole, to be myself, to connect with my essence. I took the courage to follow my soul's path and leave my job and retrain as a therapist, where I use my subtle abilities to relieve pain and support people.
Today, I no longer seek to be "like the others."
I seek to be myself, to embody my light and to shine.
And if my story can inspire others to stop hiding, to turn their pain into strength, then the whole journey was worth it.